At 7 weeks I heard your sweet, perfect heart beat. Up until then I felt like I was tiptoeing through my pregnancy. I found out I was pregnant at 3 weeks, so the 4 week wait to see you felt like forever. As soon as the ultrasound screen went up there you were, and your perfectly flickering heartbeat. I always cry tears of happiness, joy, and relief. You are growing, your heart is beating! We got the due date of September 15th. I fell even deeper in love with you every day.
When I couldn't find your heartbeat at home after just over 9 weeks, I told myself not to worry. Odds of miscarrying after 9 weeks is under 2%. I had no symptoms of miscarriage - no cramping, spotting, discomfort. I just felt great which scared me. When I saw you lifeless on the ultrasound, it is an image I won't even forget. I know technically it was an "early" miscarriage but nothing about it felt early to me. I got to carry you for almost 2 full months.
Even in the valley of loss, God's presence was with me. I know he walked me through so deeply so I could heal and find closure, despite the loss I will feel forever. If you have miscarried and never talked with anyone about it - you can talk to me. Message me on social media or email sunshinesoullife@gmail.com. I am not a doctor, therapist, or anything extra, but I can grieve with you and remember your baby and pregnancy with you. You deserve peace within your grief.
When I couldn't find your heartbeat at home after just over 9 weeks, I told myself not to worry. Odds of miscarrying after 9 weeks is under 2%. I had no symptoms of miscarriage - no cramping, spotting, discomfort. I just felt great which scared me. When I saw you lifeless on the ultrasound, it is an image I won't even forget. I know technically it was an "early" miscarriage but nothing about it felt early to me. I got to carry you for almost 2 full months.
Even in the valley of loss, God's presence was with me. I know he walked me through so deeply so I could heal and find closure, despite the loss I will feel forever. If you have miscarried and never talked with anyone about it - you can talk to me. Message me on social media or email sunshinesoullife@gmail.com. I am not a doctor, therapist, or anything extra, but I can grieve with you and remember your baby and pregnancy with you. You deserve peace within your grief.
To the baby we will meet in heaven
I found out I was pregnant December 31st. I fell in love with you, and we were all so excited. I heard your tiny, beautiful heart beat at 7 weeks and got the due date of September 15th. At my 10 week appointment I found out we lost you. Your perfect tiny heart stopped beating around 9 weeks 1 day. I miscarried and held you in my palm on February 20th. I never knew how devastating a miscarriage could feel.